Having my way with Ulysses

Talking about the time all the time.

The ritual extinguishing of fires is to be attributed to the same tendency to put an end to existing forms (worn away by the fact of their own existence) in order to make room for the birth of a new form, issuing from a new Creation. 8:40 pm

I must be getting my cycle again.   I’m all bloated and I can feel everything tight on me, and I was just skinny.  Must be time again because I got it the last time I cut my hair and it was a full moon then too.  Thirteen a year, I wonder what we’d call month 13 and where we put it.  Somebody will come along and name the new month after themselves I’m sure, like the romans did all the time.  June, July, Coca-Cola, August.  It’s coming.   So.  Look at him over there.  He’s watching, starting his watch again.  I’ll just swing my leg a little in and out.  Give him something to see.  See if he can keep time to me.  Wish Edy would disappear.  She’s always there like clockwork to notice everything and point it out too just to try to embarrass me.  Thanks for always pointing out the subtle over and again so it can be nice and obvious you bitch.  Reggy didn’t dump me, we weren’t together this time and what’s it to her anyway.  I can have anybody I want, obviously, I mean look at that guy.  He’s literally worshipping at my shrine!  His look is for me and just for me, and she knows it.  Scrawny ugly jealous bitch.  And Cissy too, fixing the twins’ hair so she can look good.  None of her business what happened between Reggy and me.  I could get him back any time I want to and I don’t want to.  His loss.  He’ll come back around and I’ll be long gone!  Ha!  I’m so much better than all of them and there’s the proof sitting right over there staring right up my skirt.  I hope I’m not starting my cycle.

But she never had a foot like Gerty MacDowell, a five, and never would ash, oak or elm

(what a pairfact crease! how amsolookly kersse!) breaking over the ankle and hugging the shoeheel, everything the best 8:12 pm

Edy Boardman thinks she’s so cute just because she’s skinny.  But have you seen her feet?  Ugly and wide.  Not like mine with my high arched instep.  Perfect.  My feet look good in shoes too and my shoes are always nicer than Edy’s.  She’s totally jealous of my blue ones too, HA!  They match my panties which are blue for luck because brides always wear blue ones with different colored ribbons.  I’m wearing them inside out for luck and lover’s meeting because Reggie is probably out somewhere, I just know it.  Except it’s Friday, so that might reverse everything.  Hm.  I wonder if I can slip them off and turn them back right side out without anybody noticing.  Don’t look.

Little recked he perhaps for what she felt

You wanna know my thing? If I really have it solid for a girl, I'll ride by her house on my bike. I'll do it, like, a hundred times in a day. It's really... it's intense.8:09 pm

I have a secret and you have to promise not to tell Cissy.  Edy guessed, because she wouldn’t have said that just now about who is little Tommy’s girlfriend.  She thinks that just because my man isn’t riding his bike past my window anymore that he’s over me or something.  But love isn’t like that!  Mrs. Gerty Wylie.  Edy wouldn’t know love if it bit her on her ass.  (Like Reggie would ever ride his bike in front of her skank ass house!)  Not like me.  Love is indescribable! Or just so _________ that I don’t want to box it in by describing it.  It’s like Christmas morning.  It’s like being on the best drug ever.  I’ve never been in love before this, so that just proves I’m able recognize it because now it is totally real.  I can say “I love him” and really know I mean it.  That’s how I know I’m in love.  And it will be just like that for Reggie too, soon enough.  Give him time.  He only stopped riding his bike past my window because he is still in school and his dad wants him to study to go to college and be a doctor.  Mrs. Dr. Wylie!  He’ll be a doctor and I’ll be like a princess and he’ll be a doctor prince riding in on his white horse to rescue me!  Love is so hard.  I feel a dull aching void in my heart.