Not could. Will. I want to. So it is the old meat after all, no matter how old. Because if memory exists outside of the flesh it won’t be memory because it won’t know what it remembers so when she became not then half of memory became not and if I become not then all of remembering will cease to be. Yes he thought between grief and nothing I will take grief.

Having my way with Ulysses

A soft qualm

January 14th • Calypso

Why are you shocked if a goddess sleeps with a man and makes no secret of it 9:27 am

She met some kid. Milly did. Prevent. Can’t prevent. She’ll have her firsts. Kiss. etc. Better keep her occupied. She wanted a dog, something to carry in a purse. Maybe I’ll just take a trip up there. Work out a press pass with McCoy, get it paid for.

Prevent some of it. Molly reading, braiding her hair. Texting. Friend of the family. That will happen too.

I feel a creeping regret, up the back of my spine, back of my neck. Spreading.